淩晨

淩晨
我沒能入睡
躺在床上的我
望著灰色的天花板
枕頭
卻給雨水弄溼了

灰色的世界裏
我想了很多很多
床也濕透了
但雨還是不停的下著
久違的雨
不願離去

夠了
失去的已經夠多了
眼淚 已經流干了
心痛 已成了節奏
真的不想再錯過了
我會好好珍惜當下
開心的活下去
妳也一樣
記得一定要幸福
祝福妳 =）

沒用的我

在妳傷心的時候
我什麽都做不到
就連安慰妳
我都無從下手
只會在一旁
看著善於僞裝的妳
仍然勉強擠出笑容
但内心世界卻早已裂成碎片

很討厭我自己
怎麽我會是這個樣子
也許我的潛意識在告訴我
我有什麽資格安慰妳
我有什麽資格保護妳
我有什麽資格喜歡妳
但妳的一舉一動都深深地影響著我
就連妳的一句話 一個字
都會影響我的思想 方向 行爲 舉動
我所有的一切

也許我很貪心
不過我真的很希望能為妳做些什麽
讓妳揚起一絲笑容就夠了
真的
至少不只是看著手機熒幕發呆
卻什麽都做不了

Seminar

Just now i went to a seminar which organised by siao kia Mic. Firstly, i will say that he looked very smart today. I thk this is first time i see him with a tie haha. But, he is still the siao kia Mic inside him XD
Oh and i sit beside Winson just now XD

The seminar is about how to prepare ourselves for the next 23 weeks before STPM. OH MY GOD!!! 23 WEEKS!!! Although i listen to him count down for 5 months, starting from 40 sumthg, but 23 is really so tmd scary == 23 weeks left and i am still wondering here and there, smsing, facebooking, like i have another 23 months to go...

Ok. Nevermind. I will try to study. Try. Mic told us that hav to force ourself to study, dont wait until have the mood. If u wait till have the mood, STPM already over. lol. But the biggest problem that i am facing right now is i cant force myself to study. haih~~~ i dont know why i became so so so lazy recently. I cant find the feeling, the feeling study is fun.

Maybe there are many things that bother me recently and i keep thinking it until i am so tired. Luckly i am more and more used to it. Hope that i can control my mind soon but control by it.

OK. enough for the emo thing.

Anyway, today i did learn something useful. Pray hard that i can find back my feeling and start my revision.
Thanks Mic for motivating me. Really thanks. I will try my best. ^^

Btw, my first english post.
clapsss~~~ Hope that there are not many mistakes in this post as my english is not very good anyway lol

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